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confusedjaz
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ive had writers block for about 2 years. i used to just flow.....amazing beautiful words would fly from my head to the paper, people would be amazed. now...now i use magnetic poetry bc otherwise, i am useless. it makes me sad, bc if there was ONE thing that was extraordinary about me, it was writing. my point? i dont write much anymore, not poetry, not stories, not diary entries, bc the fact that i have to think so hard frightens the hell out of me. i dont like writing stupid trivial things, but if i look back and read previous entries, thats exactly what ive been doing this past year. anyway, im thinkin of joining livejournal. maybe i will fare better there. life right now- good friends are away, makin decisions for next yr, wanna spend a semester abroad but i have so many people holding me back, not intentionally but just by the fact that i know i will be missing out on a lot of things with them if i leave. its hard to gather the courage to leave something good behind, just so i can experience something that i will probably never have the chance to do again. life is fuckin FLYING by. i never thought college would be looming so close. i was in fuckin first grade just a few days ago. i feel like billy madison or something. the boy in my life....well now boy becomes plural bc theres 2 boys in my life, each complicated my thoughts and heart and i just wanna fuck it all and go away to a private island with just a stereo, my cd collection, some food, and painting supplies. forget about all this stuff for a while. anyway, if i do decide to move to livejournal, i will inform ya'll. adios. p.s. jenny jones is a goddess. |
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